I am back...

It has been a long period since i last updated my blogspot.
This time, i have turned into a 19-year-old "young adult"
and have experienced many challenges.
Looking back on the post I posted before,
I do really realise that I have been mature as constantly bombarded by life challenges.

The route after SPM didn't really go as smooth as I ever imagined.
I was advised to proceed into a Junior College in Singapore after my secondary school.
Despite the stiff qualifications of admission, my dad still insisted me for going,
no matter through what way.
I bore with the sadness of being rejected by many Junior Colleges
as their standard of questions in the placement tests and expectation in the interviews were far high than what I expected.
Finally, I successfully met the admission criteria of one of those Junior Colleges
and started my study life in Singapore.

In the beginning, it was really a pleasant moment for me during the orientation week.
Singaporeans were really open-minded and warmly welcome me as a foreigner.
I befriended with a lot of Singaporeans and I did not really see any form of discrimination in the beginning.
I expected life in Junior College would be full of laughters and enjoyable at that time,
but never realise that my study life would have so much twists and turns afterwards.
It is true that there is a large gap between Singapore educational system and ours.
We as a Malaysian has far left behind those Singaporeans in education.
Those of what we should be learning in the secondary level in Malaysia are being squeezed forward to tertiary level,
causing me to be lacking of important foundation in many subjects.
Almost in every lecture, the syllabi were just the review and enhancement of what they have learnt in secondary school
that was why all the lecturers just briefly explained those concepts and expected everyone is the genius.
For me, I had to catch up all those chapters that I was still fresh to.
However, I did not really do that due to extremely extended school term and time constrain.

In extra-curricular activities, I was successfully accepted the club I desired the most.
I had very deep passion in badminton sport as well as some talents, as foreseen by the coach before making acceptance.
Because of this, he had terribly high expectation on me in playing.
The training system was very systematic and I was able to follow.
Nevertheless, my body condition turned poor as being struck by stress and lack of sleep.
I could never perform at my top form in every training, causing me to be overtaken by players who shared the same standard as me.

I was gradually abandoned from the main draw player team.
During the National Championship for JC level, I served as a back-up player in the squad.
Through those matches, I picked up valuable experiences while observing the tactics played and getting myself into the competition atmosphere.
As we were outplayed by other JCs, our coach expected a definite loss in the group play stage.
The back-up players were lifted to play as the main-draw players, so as me, who played as the first single.
Though I couldn't contribute the very first point for the team, I felt satisfied for my playing.
As my determination to keep focused in studies, I finally withdrew myself from the club and chose to enter the Chinese Cultural Club.

After a period of time, I didn't see any desirable outcome in my results.
I have badly done almost every subject.
I did intend to attend tuition, the tuition fees, however, were horrible to be afforded.
Plus, my family had to bear with extremely high school fees of studying overseas.
These made me to reconsider whether to continue studying.
Upon negotiation with family, I finally made my anguished decision, which is to quit JC, though it was not easy for a Malaysian to enter JC.

I tried the second alternative for getting into Singapore University, which was studying STPM.
I expected an easier road in STPM than A-levels but the situation wasn't that rosy.
Again, I was the one who was forced to catch up the syllabi after missing two-month lessons.
The first term of STPM was horrible to me as when I was still adapting the system, everyone had gotten use to it.
I struggled so much in studies but I was still not able to fulfil my own expectation.
Luckily by the end of the term, I secured a CGPA of 3.50 in the actual exam and this encouraged me to advance further.

During the second term, I was well-prepared for the examination system.
Desirably, everything went like a bed of rose despite the fact that I under-performed in the first test.
I regained my interest and confidence in studying, especially when it came to Calculus in Maths.
Meanwhile, I struck such a good balance between academy and sports.
It was truly challenging for the school badminton tournament held in April.
Due to the hard work paid, I was granted the first place in the Men's Single and third place in the Men's Double.
It was really a vast achievement for me in the sport.
In the Proficiency Test before the actual exam, I regained my first position in the class and ranked the third in the entire cohort as well.
During the actual exam, I was able to work out relatively smoothly as compared to the first semester.

Now, I am going to take up the challenge of proceeding into the third semester.
I pray that I will be able to attain a good grade in the second semester and keep excelling onwards!